There are just certain things you do for your offspring that makes you go, "WTF?" This is one of those moments.

For Christmas my Grandmother and Aunt gifted Nyx Doctor Dreadful. It's like a cooking set for boys. A cooking set in which you create squishy bugs, questionable drinks and then eat or drink them. I'm not kidding when I say this, in my wee days I would hope and wish my brothers would receive a Doctor Dreadful set. The commercials make them look so delicious and always piqued my interests.

So 20 years and one son later that wish has finally came true. What do you know? My stomach became a little queasy. Nyx made some spiders and worms for me a few days ago and they weren't half bad. It added a little extra "something" to the mix when the legs on the spider felt somewhat real in my life. They were prickly and stick. While the worm broke down into sections as it melted in my mouth. Get past all that, they were good lol.

Today? Different story, it was a drink. Zombie Barf to be exact. Doesn't the name just sound delicious? (-_-)

He pulled out his beaker, various mixes and his skull. Without even given me a hint he went straight to work.

"I'm making you something mom."

What am I supposed to say? Hell no? No one cooks for me so I better take what I can get. He followed the directions so carefully and to the tee. Explained every step to me and discribed the spell as he mixed each powder. I might add they actually smelled tasty.

As he went along I can't say my enthusiasm to try this Zombie Barf concoction actually grew. I got a little scared. Especially after he mixed the two liquids together. The first mixture began to solidify to reassemble a blue watery gelatin substance. While the other was orangey soda with a pungent fruity smell. Together it was very......unappealing.

But I drank it. Initially I could handle the taste and texture, but the lingering after taste is what killed it. Even after 4 or 5 sips my Spawn couldn't handle it. It pretty to look at, but that's it. He ended up dumping in the drain pipe outside of our house!

Verdict, it was a great successful Mad Scientist experiment. Sadly a failed drink, fun nonetheless. There are still a few other things for him to make me. I'm not sure if I should be scared or excited.

Apparently today is National Weigh In Day, which of course fits perfectly for that fact that I want to continue my journey of dropping the pounds. For the past 2 years now I have working towards getting to my pre-pregnancy aka high school weight. I may or may not reach it, but that's ok. The whole purpose for me to lose the extra baggage is for me to feel better.

I dropped a lot of weight at the beggining of 2011 and then come my birthday I started putting it back on. I am happy I didn't put back all of the weight I did lose. My goal isn't to be a stick, but simply feel better. I no longer feel as sluggish and tired as I did before, but I don't quite feel 100%.

I would love to weight 135lbs again. I chose that goal because frankly that's the last weight I remember feeling really good about myself. Not just mentally, but physically and emotionally. I want that back.

Now I'm not one to shy away from the scale, no matter how much I hate seeing those numbers climb. But I am human, of course not the healthiest, but I have flaws and I'm not afraid to share it.

So day 2 here's my current weight, 158.2lbs.

With so much of last year being a learning experience with a lot more downs than ups I kept myself away from blogging. So I shall attempt to make it a point to post something everyday. Even if just a photo.

So they may not be the greatest most enlightening posts it will be something. A goal. Simply what this is.

I am not always able to sit at my computer so I'm grateful that Squarespace came out with an Android app.

The first day of the new year was spent relaxing at home doing absolutely NOTHING. My night was spent cuddled up with the only man that loves me and watching Glee.

I have to say its a great way to start my new year.

Best part? I was hangover free.

Seeing as this is my first post via Android I hope this works and looks ok.

So Happy Birthday to me and Happy Birthday to YOU.

Sure it's my birthday doesn't mean I should be the only one with  presents.

A few months back I said I wanted to do a giveaway when I hit 1000 followers, well now I am at 1110 followers so I am LONG over due. A few weeks ago I also tweeted I didn't know what to do with a couple XBL and PSN cards. Actually I still don't so I'm winging it.

Please note this giveaway is in NO WAY sponsored by anyone. I bought these gift cards with my own money out of my own pocket from my own paycheck from my own job.

I ask you nicely to respect that. I'm not rich. Though I wish I was.

Few simple things

1. This is region locked so it's only for US residents. I'm sorry for my non-US followers I promise to figure out another giveaway and make this more fair. Don't hate me.

2. I would hope you are following me, this is for my followers.

3. To enter real simple just leave a comment down below. Tell me whatever you want. Fact, Story, Joke, your imaginary best friend, doesn't matter. But just know if I randomly choose you I will be reading what you said. So know that.

4. Post only one comment, but if you get a little anxious and post multiple just know I will only enter ONE of your comments.

5. It's not required for you to RT or tell all of your followers. Because more people means less likely you'll win. Plus this isn't about me getting more followers. It's about me showing appreciation for the ones I already have. If I could afford I'd buy everyone cards, but I haven't won the lottery yet. I'm working on it.

Pretty simple. This will run my entire birthday from NOW (11pm 8/15) till Midnight HST 8/16.

Lastly, do me a favor guys massive spam @Rambo513 and tell him I have a birthday present for him and he should DM me.

Please forgive the fact that I look dead, I'm working on 2 hours of sleep. I pretty much winged this video hoping it turned out ok lol.

In the last few hours before you begin another year, celebrate another birthday, and welcome new challenges one can’t help but to look back and see where the past year has gone. In 9 hours 45mins I’ll be 27 years old. So what have I accomplished, how have I grown, and what have I learned over the last 364 days? I’m not sure.

I feel that I have been stuck in a rut the last several years. My situation hasn’t really gotten worse, but it hasn’t gotten any better either. I’m just stuck. But it’s not to say I didn’t gain anything.

If at 25 someone told me that my boyfriend of 6 years would no longer be by my side before my 27^th birthday I would have called them crazy. But what do you know I made a difficult decision and did what I felt was best for me. I took a plunge and broke it off. From that I learned that we didn’t have the healthiest relationship. Where he felt we were fine, I felt we weren’t. I spent 6 years waiting for him; I just didn’t want to wait anymore. I didn’t feel the same.

The past 5 months have been difficult to say the least. It’s been a very long time since I’ve been on my own. I almost forgot what it’s like. I forgot how lonely it is to attack things solo. Granted I do have my son, but in some ways it makes it harder. My Spawn is my best friend, side kick, and partner in crime and he always will be. However, it’s far too much for just one offspring to ever hear the sobs of his mother. It’s one thing to go about things alone and have only yourself to care for, it’s something entirely different to have a Spawn, a Grandmother and her house to watch over. It’s far more responsibility than I have ever been given. I’m afraid of failing.

But you know what? I’ve amazed myself. As beaten and stomped on as I feel I have to give myself a pat on the back because honestly I think I’m doing a mighty fine job. May not be my best yet, but I’m doing ok. Things can be better, well everything can always be better, but I’m keeping my head above the water. Okay maybe just my nose, just far enough above that I can breathe to just barely survive, but hey it’s surviving.

I wouldn’t call myself religious, but I have spiritual beliefs and I believe that we aren’t given more than we can handle. We were put here for whatever reason and we must decide what that reason is. So whatever situation or problem we are handed we already have the tools and know-how to overcome them. It’s the task of figuring out the means to do so. I’m still discovering that.

I’ve come to accept that I am always given a shitty hand and put at a disadvantage, as shitty and as much as I hate that I wouldn’t want it any other way. I’ve been homeless, poor and literally have nothing but the clothes on my back. Yet somehow some way I came out on top. I climbed out of whatever hole I dug myself into and turned my misfortune into a blessing. I don’t plan on ever having that change.

This past year has been filled with ups and downs, doubts, fear and a lot of pain. It’s also been filled with love, triumphs, and amazing revelations. I can’t yet say I am blessed for this past year, but neither can I say it was hell. I’d like to think this past year has brought out my worst and my best. It has made me more of an aware person, opened my mind even more, and has allowed me to loosen the reigns around my heart.

As 27 approaches - rather quickly - I fully intend on making this new year amazing. I don’t plan on ever calling it quits and giving up. I’m aiming to try out some new ventures and take myself even further out of my comfort zone. I can’t even fathom what my 27^th year shall bring to my already overwhelmed table I call my life, but I can say I welcome whatever it is.

I can’t explain it, but I’m nervous, scared, and quite honestly excited for what lies ahead of me. Is that crazy?

So Happy (early) Birthday to me.

Too bad I’ll be at work lol.

Highlights:

• Given the opportunity to participate in a VVM for G4TV and Viewer’s Army for AOTS.
• Finishing one of the biggest projects I have ever been given at work. Too bad I can’t share it.
• Meeting/Networking with many new people – especially the G4 staff – on Twitter.
• Meeting @SupremeDDT.
• Being an Overlord(dess) to a 3^rd grader Spawn.
• Losing 25lbs. (Only 10lbs left till I reach my goal.)
• Taking my first (and only) singles weekend trip to Oahu with @BaldBawlz and meeting @Hyperkind808

Things I plan on doing this next year:

• Attending at least one convention. Most likely Comic Con.
• Losing my last 10 lbs.
• Hoping to meet @Jiao_Tu & @Cali_Gamer (hopefully at Comic Con)
• Taking a trip to Cali to just see my brothers.
• Take Nyx to Disneyland/Legoland/Six Flags.